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it's been a while, huh. I'm putting a backdated Hourly Comics Day post in after this but meanwhile it has somehow become May.

The news is: we got kicked out of the studio! Not us, personally, we're good girls, the whole agency that rents inexpensive studios to artists. The owners of the building turned off our heat and water instead of keeping to any kind of condition of the lease and nobody had the energy or more importantly the money to fight them about it. At the end of February J and I transported all of our stuff out, and now all of my canvases and collage books sit, crammed into a corner of my bedroom.

But here I am, an artist still. I don't like the narrative desire to draw a lesson from every occurrence and I already knew I was a "real artist" (because everyone is), but I did learn that having a space to do art in is incalculably precious. Perhaps this means I have to learn how to apply for art grants, while those still exist. Time will tell.

Right now I'm fairly fatigue-free and working 35 hours a week and the external structure, despite consuming my most active morning hours, has also given me the inertial movement to do a lot of drawing at lunch and in the hour after work. The work itself also involves a lot of reading archival Gestapo documents, and the old fascism plus the new fascism do make me want to make freakier and freakier art. Not because I think art is any kind of weapon of activism but because I'm a spite-motivated pervert and want to feel alive.

Thus: I'm going to be updating my website again! Soon! There's gonna be new sketchbook pages and shit to look at! I have some half-finished Monstrous May drawings that I might actually post somewhere before the month of May ends, but no promises! I work on nobody's time but my own and the rotation of the spheres, months are an illusion.

current
mood:	in motion
music:	"Penzance" by Patrick Wolf
questions:
how hard can it be to learn Bella Ciao on the harmonica, really?